Be still and know that I am God

Three days into the new year and I'm feeling accomplished. I have been constantly reminding myself that small steps is all I need. Not giant leaps. Not steps backwards. Not sitting in the pouting position on the floor either. I just need to keep the momentum moving forward. I refused to get out of the car in the rain late last night after work in order to get groceries. I only beat myself up about that until I got home, an hour later. But today is a different story. I got groceries after work, prepared my overnight oats for tomorrow's breakfast and I even packed my lunch! Amazing right?! And that is after I signed up for LifeLock due to my identity being tampered with. Can we say an extremely productive year so far?! So I'm flying high as I crawl into bed. Praising myself for being ok that I didn't actually get to figuring out all the weight watcher points for my meals tomorrow. I mean, I'm ok with it because, frankly, I just ran out of time. But it is better than fast food tomorrow so I'm clinging to that. I even opened up my devotional tonight in bed. And as my head is high fiving itself for the amazing evening and already thinking about how to duplicate that every night this week plus laundry, my devotional is called  "stay focused on God". Oops. I know it isn't wrong to be excited for how I got some things done tonight. But I was very me centered about it. The devotional said about being still and know He is God. Waiting on Him patiently. Finding rest in Him. And it said that it doesn't mean to wait in worry or to fret but a sustained effort to stay focused on God through prayer and belief. So I was like, ok, that makes sense. Have faith that God is working. Then it ended with to wait is to rest in the Lord. "Fresh strength. Renewed vigor. Legs that don't grow weary. Delight yourself in God, and he will bring rest to your soul. " "“but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭40:31‬ ‭NIV I instantly relaxed and sighed. Doesn't that sound fantastic? Fresh strength. Soaring like eagles. No weariness. Rest to your soul. Oh man can I use some rest to my soul. My brain immediately stopped it's to do list and became thankful. Thankful to God that the time was available to get those things done today. Thankful to God that His desire is to work on my behalf so that I don't have to be weary or restless. That when my crazy mind wants to take over or I get angry that the plans I had got unexpectedly hijacked, being still in Him can settle it all down. Now, remembering this is the challenge. Because none of this is new information or a new concept. I'm not sure if I mentioned yet that I am not perfect. Shocking, I know. But isn't it amazing how just when I think I am making progress to this so called balance thing this day, this week, this year, God gently reminds me that the peace and true rest didn't occur tonight until I joined Him in His word. Silly me and thinking I'm in control.